It's not that I'm afraid... that's a lie, I'm TERRIFIED. I'm afraid of the unknown that's gaping in front of my life and swallowing the next 8 months of my life. I'm afraid my new roommates are going to be stuck up and elitist. I'm afraid I'll be subpar compared to them. What if I lose touch with all my old friends and don't make new ones? What if I don't make time for things like friendship and dating and fun? "Things can move at such a pace, the second hand just waves goodbye". I don't want that to be my experience in Officer's Circle. I'm afraid it's what I'm going to make it and I'm not sure how to stop that from happening. Plus, I swear the clock said 1:07 five minutes ago. Perhaps it's a sign that I need to slow down, refuse some things that I'm asked to do, leave behind a commitment or two. Or perhaps it's telling me to go to bed because it's one a.m. and it's been a long day, and tomorrow promises to be the same.
Though I'm afraid, I'm excited for the next 8 months. I think good things will happen while I'm here, things that couldn't have happened if I was safe in my own bed somewhere else. I think I'll enjoy a much shorter commute to campus, since I'm already there. I'll have at least 2 new friends in Victoria, my roommate, and Heid, my RA. "Life's what you make it, so let's make ir rock." I hope I'll over come my fear and make this situation the best ever. "La la la la la la la life is wonderful..." For now I just need to sleep.
